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I'm suppose to think positive. Think that everything will be okay. That THIS is just something that God put ahead of me so I can learn how to deal and get stronger. But why does it hurt so bad? I'm so fustrated. Fustrated because I don't know what to do. I dislike this feeling. And why do things happen to good people out there? I don't get it. I don't get this life that we live in.

Brings me to where Andy was talking about life. Life is a crazy ass roller coaster. Too many damn twirls and shit. Too much shit we deal with it. Fuck. That's all I could say. I'd scream, but then people will think I'm some crazy ass lady here at the front lobby. That's not good.

DAMMIT MAN! That's all folks ...

Happy Friday

Thank goodness it's Friday!! Last day of the work day peoples! Hehe. Boy do I feel the head and I'm not even outside! Goodness me oh my! Hehe. If it were possible, I'd wear me some shorts and a tank, but no. Can't do that. Hehe. Not professional here! Hehe. Anywho's, so I'm so looking forward to the weekend. Spending time with the familia. Yay!

Family Get-To-Gethers

So, this weekend we will be heading to Auntie Beths house for Jackies graduation/Cousin Day. I'm so excited because the last Cousin Day that we had, we weren't able to attend due to certain reasons. So, I am superly happy and looking forward to the weekend. I'm also excited the Jaime and the boys are coming too since we rarely see them. Time to bring out all of our cameras! Haha. I know there are so going to be constant picture taking because it always happens when the family are together. Oh, and the Shanghai Lover and I are going to go out for a bit cuz she's going to teach me how to drive stick! Hell yeah baby!!! Haha. Sure looking forward to that! I hope I get the hang of it, or at least learn how to start up the engine! LOL. I heard it's pretty hard, but after some practice, it's a breeze. Haha, maybe I should just turn the hazard lights on just incase if I have to drive on the streets, that way, if I still or something, people will know there are issues with the car. LMAO! Now that is funny! Hehe. Anyway,excited to get a new camera this Friday! Yay! Hehe. I'm still not 100% sure which one I want to get. There's that Sony bundle and that Canon with a big lcd screen. Okay, total randomness, but that lady on the phone who asked for mr. bossman is a little rude. My job here is to TRANSFER calls when someone asks for someone here at the office. I sure as hell don't know if they're in the building or not. That's why I said Hold and that is why I transfer these damn phone calls! Shoot! Anywho's, gotta get some stuff done here so I guess this will end for now ...

This Feeling

Not knowing if I am, if I was, is killing me inside. If I was, could I have done something to make things all right? We could've had runs thru my head. Just thinking about it makes me sad. I'm hurting because I know. It hurts and I'm sorry. But I'm trying, trying to hide what I'm really feeling. Hiding it so no one else has to worry except me, myself, and I. So I smile, smile so nobody will ask ...

Time

It quite amazing how time can pass us by with a blink of an eye. It seems as if he and I have been together for quite a long time, but in reality, we haven't. And to have so many things in common is definitely a plus. What a big impact you have been, a good one as well. Such a beautiful thing, you and I. I'm happy. That simple.